4/24/2014 1 Comment
So many of our rewarding experiences on this planet come from a full utilization of our physical senses. When I think about the most precious events of my life- hearing my kids belly-laugh, looking upon their sweet faces for the first time, seeing the broad smile of a loved one, tasting the most incredible wine- I know these moments are dependent upon my use of the physical senses I often take for granted. But, in addition to these purely physical senses, I also value my “sixth sense”, my intuition.
I have always considered myself a highly intuitive person and recognize that some of my greatest successes in life are a result of having tuned into my intuition. In my career as a school psychologist, I sometimes get a strong sense of what a family or a child needs from me, simply from spending some time in their presence. Naturally, I access my knowledge of psychology and human emotion that comes from many years of training and experience. But, I also know that as I sit with them, I am tapping into my intuitive sense to help discover the true root of the problem and also, the course of action that should be utilized. My intuition has undoubtedly helped me in my parenting of my own two children. Like many parents, I recall that “little internal nudge” that tells me to hurry up and check on the baby, who at that moment was doing something dangerous. I recall sitting with my crying daughter, seemingly over an argument she had with a friend, and yet knowing, somehow, that this was not the true reason for her outpouring grief. “Dig deeper,” it compels me. “There’s something she’s not telling you.”
We all possess this incredible ability, an “inner knowing” that steers decision making, guides our reasoning and at times, allows us to connect with others on a deeper level. It allows us the amazing opportunity to make good decisions-even major life decisions- when all of the variables can’t be known or measured. We hear people talk about use of their intuition often. Remarks such as “I went with my gut”, or “I just knew it wasn’t the right place for me,” demonstrate that as humans, we know, trust and often embrace these flashes of illumination just as we trust the information that comes through our eyes and ears. It is also true; however, that there are times when we don’t hear or simply refuse to listen to our intuition.
Why would we overlook such an incredible resource? Maybe it just seems too intangible, too mysterious. Perhaps we are accustomed to doubting ourselves- underestimating our divine nature. Many of us sharing this Earthly experience simply fail to recognize how truly powerful we are. And, let’s face it, the idea of receiving knowledge from a divine source or a higher self is pretty special. Are we altogether comfortable with that?
Recently, I surprised myself by completely silencing my intuition. I purchased an online offer for two chiropractic visits at an office I never visited before. I read the reviews of this office and felt comfortable I had made a good decision. The day of my first visit arrived. As I sat in the waiting area, I saw several people passing in the hallway, all wearing scrubs. It was hard to know which of these people would be my doctor. As I gazed over, one person in particular caught my attention. I immediately thought, “I do not want that person to be my doctor.” I felt my stomach clench at the thought of being adjusted by this person. I remember chastising myself. “Stop it. He looks perfectly fine. This is a reputable office. Why are you being so sensitive?” I looked over at the group of people again. “I just know he’s going to be the one working with me. I need to make an excuse and leave.” Just then, he approached me. I went back with him to have my adjustment, feeling completely uncomfortable. All the while, I was scolding myself for thinking ill about someone I don’t know at all. Yes, I was mentally scolding myself. And, I am the same person who routinely relies upon and really cherishes my intuition?
During my treatment, I felt several times that he was being somewhat unprofessional. I didn’t like the way he visually scanned my body, called out specific body parts for putting too much strain on my back and shoulders, placed my hands in unusual places while he performed my adjustment. I remember the mental gymnastics I underwent during this time. “Is this normal? Why do I feel like I want to run out of here? Am I making something out of nothing?” The visit ended. I left in a hurry, knowing I would definitely not be redeeming the second visit I had already paid for.
Here’s the truth. I don’t know what went on in that office. I don’t know why I had an instantaneous negative feeling toward someone I didn’t know at all. I don’t know whether my strong gut feelings interfered with my ability to observe his work objectively. But, I do know this. God granted me a gift of intuition. I treasure it. I know how graciously it guides me and helps to illustrate my path in this life. I feel sorry that I didn’t honor my intuitive feelings in that moment. I put the doctor’s feelings and my own concerns about embarrassing myself ahead of my own feelings of safety and well-being. Moving forward, I want to honor my gift more completely and not make this kind of mistake again.
Noreen Roman, a Little Light Project volunteer, is a certified psychologist and college instructor in the Phoenix area. She grew up as a highly intuitive/ sensitive child, with a strong connection to the spirit world. As frequently happens, this sensitivity to spirit was stifled for decades in order to squash fears and remain in the “norm.” Upon her father’s death in 2010, Noreen began having regular visitations from him, as well as other spirits, guides and angels. Noreen first connected with the Little Light Project when she was in the process of renewing and deepening her connection to spirit. She also sought support from LLP when managing her young son’s struggles related to his own sensitivity. Today, Noreen embraces her strong intuitive sense and the inspiration and information she channels, which often serves to bring comfort and healing to others. She is honored to be a consultant for the Little Light Project, whose goals and purposes are so close to her own heart.